I went and visited with my grandparents yesterday. They live in Bryan and I just wanted to see them.
My grandmother has been battling cancer for years. She was first diagnosed with breast cancer, and then it spread to bone cancer. She is one of the strongest people that I know. She is a soft spoken woman, and very, very rarely talks about her cancer. My grandfather takes care of her, and is quite the opposite of "soft spoken." :)
I went into the bedroom when I got there because Mawmaw was laying down. Her, Pawpaw, and I started talking about me going to school, Mawmaw and I talked about the books we have read this summer, and how I want to go study abroad next summer in Rome. I asked her how she had been feeling this week, and as always she told me she was doing great. Then my Pawpaw said something that I didn't expect. He said, "You know, I wonder sometimes if God has anything left for me to do. I always wanted to raise a family, support my family, and get married. I've done all this and am now taking care of your grandmother. I don't know what else there is for me to do."
I was a little taken back by this only because i've never heard my Pawpaw say anything like this. I told him that God has a purpose for everyone, and that he might not even have gotten his yet. I said that maybe his "wonderful journey" and plan that the Lord has for him, has not even begun. This is when my Grandmother said something that I will NEVER forget, and will carry with me for the rest of my life.
Mawmaw sat up slowly in the bed and said, "The Lord gives everyone a different dance to dance to."
I don't know why these simple words touched my heart so very much, but they did. Here is a woman who has been battling cancer for years, and still wakes up every morning ready to face her next challenge. What she said made me really think about my life.
What dance am I dancing? Is the "beat of my life" fulfilling and upbeat? Once again, God showed me just how amazing that he is. I have no clue what the Lord has in store for me, but I'll tell you one thing, I will ALWAYS keep on dancing....
